Monday, December 04, 2006
heylo...
not in a mood that i want to be in right now..so yupp
a mood that its hard for me to say..
maybe a mix of ignorance,lonely,worried,scared..yeah that kind of mood.
if u get me
i just received news tht its quite okay to me..i feel happy for him,i know i didnt help much.coz all i can do is stare at the screen.wait for him.but now its by far different.yupp different situation meets with different people and different emotion.
i do still miss him..but i certainly dont like him the way i use to.we cld be friends,i have no problem with that.so just to let u know
i've wasted ALOT of time..and i'm not going to repeat that mistake again.not anymore
i have many directions that i cld go to.imagine a road that has 3 lanes..one leads to the woods.one to the sea.and one to the city.i wld go to the sea..and u know why?
because i wanna be free like the birds flying in the sky.i wanna be smart.i wanna be respected by all means.i wanna be everything that is good in life and i could enjoy it for the rest of my life.i know u think this is lame.but its what i want.
i know i cld accomplish that dream of mine somehow..but there's no path that i cld start with.everything seems wrong.and i dont know how to fix it.i just have no hope.
everybody seems to ignore me.but i don't mind.they cld anything they want.its not my life to interfere their personal life.i dont have a problem.im not confused either.just alone.i'll make it through somehow
a pencil and a paper keeps me up just to let me draw.draw all kinds of things.love.hate.crushed.broken-hearted.tears.and such.in my thoughts.i was wondering if i could stop myspace for awhile and do other things tht keeps me occupy.
i have a secret.but im not sure if i wanna tell.so just wait for now.
music keeps me happy.till i turned on L.O.V.E to full blast.jump around,danced like no one's watching..and scream no one's hearing.i felt really good.so alive!till i went online again.and no one seems to talk.but i dont mind.so right now im just typing whats in my mind.
regarding of the yesterday's post.i got too carried away.so i'm going to delete it after this.so here's my stop.goodnight sleep tight.and enjoy my new tune.
later~
she told
the story ...
11:49 PM
